That Old Park
We were only fifteen then but I knew I’m never going to feel something like that ever again. I remember how we first met, back at that old park near the river. I didn’t know that you’ve been watching me from afar until you walk up to me. You told me you think I was the most beautiful girl you’ve seen. I knew that my cheeks were burning but I couldn’t take my eyes off your smile. You introduce yourself and it was the beginning of the two of us.
I remember how you held my hands as we walk along the river banks talking about everything and nothing at all. I remember those days when I’d cried because of something silly and you were always there to give me a kiss in my forehead, letting me know that you’re always there.
I’ve always thought that with you the sky is the bluest. Knowing that you’re mine makes me feel calm and peace. I’ll always have those memories of us telling each other how much we cared and loved each other.
Oh do you remember those letters that we wrote? We used to write letters for each other every Sunday. We meet in the park and exchange them. I always smiled every time I read one of your letters. They were always full of love and feeling. We used to put them inside a bottle after reading them and let the current of the river take it wherever it’s meant to be. Now how I wished to read them all over again.
Memories fade away. The roses had withered. Spring has come and gone. But you my love, will never fade from my mind and heart.
Where did the time go? I asked myself. Now I’m looking at you as tears swell in my eyes. Has it already been four years since I first met you? Look how much we’ve grown and yet how much we’re still the same. We’re already nineteen and you’re saying goodbye to me. I couldn’t help but cry as you embrace me for the last time and whispered in my ears that you’ll always love me.
I’ve never been the same then, because you took a part of me. The first months were the hardest but I tried to stand up again, this time alone. I once asked myself how to live a life alone, when all my adolescent life you’ve been with me. I guess I was strong enough to move on.
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I guess time really plays a trick on all of us. It has been a fun roller coaster ride with you and you were a memory I could never get out of my mind. You’re like an old favorite song, you suddenly remember the lyrics and you can’t help but play that song. Yes, you’re my old favorite song, and how I wished I could forget you but there are those days when I just look for you and misses you oh so much.
Now it’s been eight years since you last held me in your arms and I was smiling at you as you took my hand and shook it. How formal I thought, it’s as if we never had those memories. It broke my heart again, knowing that you didn’t care enough.
Look at us, we’re now both 27, things have changed and yet you still have the same impact on me. I tried to laugh as we were all talking about things that soon will be happening. We never really look into each other’s eye long enough to read each other’s emotion. We both have some excuse to talk to someone else when our gaze met.
I still feel that warmth feeling whenever you’re near. I had to excuse myself out because you still made my heart skip a beat and oh how I am betraying myself.
I found myself at a beautiful garden and it reminded me so much of that old park. Suddenly memories came alive and there we were, both our backs on the ground gazing at the stars. That old park is now long gone, it has been abandoned and no kids or lovers were ever seen again strolling at that old park. Just like our love, how we both abandoned something so beautiful.
I didn’t notice you walking towards me and yet there you were with your beautiful smile and handsome face that never fails to take my breath away. You stared at the garden and you lost your gaze. I wondered if you saw what I was seeing too.
You took my hand and told me how happy you are for me. I smiled and told you how proud I am of what you’ve become. You held my hand for the first time in eight years and I looked in your eyes. I thought I saw a glimpse of regret in your eyes and I wondered if it’s because you let me go.
How long did we stare at each other, I don’t know. You held me in your arms out of the blue just like eight years ago and you whispered again that you’ll always love me. It was the last goodbye. This time I didn’t let you see my tears instead I whispered back and I told you how much I never forgot about you and how much I still love you.
I walked away never looking back. I still love you and I will always will.
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I walked away because it was the only thing that I can do. I walked away because I can't be stuck in a memory forever. I walked away because I had a life too and I deserved to be someone better. I walked away because I know that if I wouldn't, you would put a spell on me and I wouldn't be able to move on.
We were soul mates that was never meant to be together.
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