Remembering You & US

First of all, I would like to defend myself. I’m over you. That’s it. You are a thing of my past, I meant, WE are a thing of MY past.

I know you have your own life and I also know that you know that I have my own too. We’re both happy with how things are going on with our lives. I know I made the right decision when I decided to get over you, to stop liking you, to stop wondering and to stop hoping for an US, or a better us, if we really had something going on.

I did stop but it doesn’t mean that I have cut you out of my life, or that I have forgotten the memories I had with you. Sometimes, the past crawls up in my mind and I think about you. Sometimes, when the rain pours hard, I remember that time when we were both stuck in the rain, you didn’t know, but I kept looking at you. Sometimes, before I go to sleep, I remember the nights I cried myself to sleep because I thought I couldn’t take it anymore. Sometimes, when I hear a song, I remember how you sang it to me and how you look deep into my eyes. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision. I still do think about what could have been for us. But then I think about the reasons why I chose to get over you.

I remember the times that you’ve hurt me; the times that I wished I didn’t love you. I can’t keep going on loving you when I know its never going to work in the end. You’ll always be you and I’ll always be me. And no matter how much we love each other, we just wouldn’t work out because we’re too different. I know it and you know it and it just came to the point where we couldn’t deny it anymore. I’m just glad that I’ve realized it early, because I saved myself a lot of tears and pain. It was the best for the two of us.

I remember you and there’s nothing wrong with it. You were the one that got away. You got away because I let you. No one would get away if the other person didn’t let it.

I stop loving you, I wish I could say this and mean it, but I can’t. I still love you and I will always will. I can’t help it that I’m writing this now and think about you, think about us, think about the love we once had. I truly wish your happy now.

As for me, I’m happy of that I’m sure. Now, it’s time to close the curtain and let the past be the past again. Let’s just say, we were two souls who love each other so much, we chose to be friends in order not to hurt each other more.