Passion, Where art thou?

I stare at an empty page

Hoping something would come out of it

But I was trap in a cage

Nothing felt right, nothing seems to fit.

All I had in me was rage

I wish I had inside me the wit

To stand in front of a stage

But all I can do is sit

And stare at this empty page.

It was love I was trying to find

But I got lost as time pass by,

Lost by everything inside my mind

So I cry staring at the sky

And wished for the whole world to be kind

Where was passion when I needed it the most?

All I had was an empty page and being lost

Why have you abandoned me at the glum coast?

I need you and I will have you at any cost.

Frustrations on becoming a good writer. 

5 Centimeters Per Second

5 Centimeters per Second is a story about love, time, loss and moving on. A breathtakingly movie with beautiful imagery and animation from popular anime artist and director Makoto Shinkai. The movie is divided into three chapters with each chapters coming from different point of their lives. The first chapter is during when both of them were young. The second chapter is how Takaki struggled to move on and how a girl namely Sumida, fell in love with him. The third chapter shows both Takaki and Akira in their adult lives.

This movie tells the tale of a young couple Tano Takaki and Shinohara Akira and how they grew fond of each other, how they drift apart and how sometimes, time and distance really matters. 

I stumbled upon this anime when I was searching for anime photos with sunset on it. I saw one of the screen shots of the anime and a blog reviewing the movie. I thought of watching the film and indeed it was beautiful. The film is full of symbolism. It's a heartbreaking movie that tells the realities of love. 

5 Centimeters per Second is said to be the speed of a cherry blossom's petal when it falls into the ground. The speed is use as a metaphor of how people can be sometimes towards love. 

Another beautiful symbolism in the movie is the imagery of the sky. Takaki has a recurring dream about watching the sky with Akira on his side. This scene tells us how we want something so beautiful but its too far too reach. All we can do is stare at its beauty for the longest time, trying to reach it with our hands but never really touching it. This is the love of the two main characters in their story. Their love for each other is almost perfect but distance is against them and so is time.

Time doesn't heal everything but instead it only makes the pain less. Takaki never really move on from his first love Akira. He had a previous relationship for three years but choose to break up because he knew he was still hang up with Akira. Like what he said, "Even if we were to exchange a thousand emails ... Our heart would probably not move even one centimeter closer together".

On the first chapter we see Akira running on the other side of the train rails before the train passes byleaving Takaki on the other side. This scene is repeated on the last part. This time, both of them were grown ups. They pass each other on the rail, probably recognizing each other. Both of them paused and turn around just after the train pass by. Takaki waited until the train passed to see who the lady is on the other side. However, the lady was no where to be found. Takaki looked sad and then smiled bitterly, he walked away from the rails. Just like how Akari moved on, he should move on too. He should stop living in the past and try to find a new life with which Akari is not a part of. 

Love does not always with stand against distance and time. No matter how true the love is, sometimes, it's really not meant to be.

There is so much to tell about this film. I'm afraid that I might spoil everything. There are so many scenes that I left out. This movie is deep and so real. It's sad and beautiful at the same time.

Are we really slow like the cherry blossom's petal? We tend to forget to appreciate all the love that we have right now and we don't even know when we will part.

"Our lives spread out before us ... are too large, an endless amount of time"

"At what speed must I live to be able to see you again?"

Here is the trailer:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDBH4xCE9ys&feature=fvst

You can watch the film here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mPCaAJ3BogE&feature=related

One More Time, One More Chance

I'm tired. I was swimming under the heat of the sun today. However, I cannot bear the thought that I don't have a post for today. 

I was planning to give a review and insight about the anime movie I just finished this morning. 5 Centimeter per Second an anime movie that tells the tale of a love so perfect yet so not meant to be.

I can't do a review, my eyes are rolling from being tired, so instead, let me give you the lyrics of the soundtrack of the said anime. The original of course is in japanese, but let's stick to the english translation, shall we?

I love the lyrics and the song by the way and I hope you can appreciate it as much as I did. 

	One More Time, One More Chance
	If I lose any more than this, will my heart be forgiven How much pain before I can see you again One more time, please don't change the season One more time to the time when we fool around
	When our path cross each other, I am always the first to turn Making me indulge more in my selfish way One more chance tripped by memories One more chance we cannot choose our next place
	I am always searching somewhere for you Opposite of the house, the other side of the alley's window Even though I know you won't be here If my wish is to be granted, please bring me to you right now Betting and embracing everything To show you there's nothing else I can do
	Anybody should be fine if it was just to ease loneliness Because the stars in the night sky seems like falling, I cant lie to myself One more time, please dont' change the season One more time to the time when we fool around
	I am always searching somewhere for you Even at the intersection and dream Even though I know you won't be here If miracle was to happen, I want to show it to you right now A new morning, myself and the "I love you" which I couldn't say
	Summer's memory is revolving The sudden disappearance of heart beat
	I am always searching somewhere for you At dawn's town, At Sakuragi street Even though I know you won't come here If my wish is to be granted, please bring me to you right now Betting and embracing everything To show you there's nothing else I can do
	I am always searching somewhere for your fragment At the destination's shop, At the corner of the newspaper Even though I know you won't be there If miracle was to happen, I want to show it to you right now A new morning, myself And the "I love you" which I couldn't say
	I always end up looking somewhere for your smile At the railway crossing of the fast pace town Even though I know you won't be here If life can be repeated, I'll go to you many times over There's nothing else that I want Nothing else is more important than you   From Anime Lyrics dot Com        The photos above are screen shots of 5 centimeters per second. Look out for my review slash  story telling. ^__^

The End and The Beginning - TV Season Finales

I can't remember when my addiction for Hollywood TV series started. It was probably when I first watched 2 seasons of Lost on the eve of Christmas day. I finished the two seasons in a span of three days. Or was it when my sister brought home a DVD of Grey's Anatomy season 1? Or how about when I first got interested with HBO's Entourage?

I truly can't remember where and when it all started. Ever since Lost season 2, I waited patiently for it's season 3 until it's latest season right now, which by the way is the final season. Along with Lost was Desperate Housewives, Grey's Anatomy, Entourage, Heroes, Sex and the City and recently, Leverage.

This year, I've witness four season finale of my favorite series. Leverage Season 2 finale, Desperate Housewives Season 6 finale, Gossip Girl Season 3 finale and Grey's Anatomy Season 6 finale. 

I first saw Leverage's season finale last March. But the other three, I saw their finale almost simultaneously. I saw Desperate Housewives' season finale last week, Gossip Girl's just yesterday and today, I saw Grey's Anatomy season finale. 

I can't help but compare their season finale. They are all great shows but some season finales are just so thrilling. Those types of finale that will make you want to shout to the script writers and ask them why. Those that will definitely leave an impact to the audience both frustrations and satisfaction.

They say that every beginning  comes from another's ending. Each season finale is a story for a new beginning. So which finale of the four TV series did I mention did the best job? I'm going to answer that question, but I warn you there will be spoilers. So read on if you want to know what happened.

4. Desperate Housewives Season 6

Desperate Housewives season 6 started with a bang. With Susan's wedding, Karl Mayer's death and Lynette pregnancy. I thought, this is gonna be a good season. It was. There were many surprising events throughout the season. Bree and Orson fixing their marriage, Katherine Mayfair's suicide attempt, Fairview's Strangler and many more. However, I was disappointed with the season finale. I think they made a mistake by making episode 23. I think that episode 22 was way better to be the season finale. With Lynette facing Fairview's strangler and her life  and the twins depends on her next move. With episode 23, a truth was revealed to a friendship, a character moved away from Fairview and a forgotten character came back.

I heard that season 7 is the final season of the show. That's probably the reason why the producers and scriptwriters decided to write Paul's comeback in Wisteria Lane. If season 7 will be the last season then I think it'll be about going back to the roots of Desperate Housewives. The producers maybe decided to go back to season one's plot to finally end the story. It's always good to look back on where we come from, that's probably what their thinking.

3. Leverage Season 2

One of my favorite shows of all time. Leverage is a story about a group of thieves headed by Nathan Ford, a former insurance investigator. With a twist of humor and amazing stunts, this show will throw you off the chair. The picture above shows the role of each of the character. There is Nate, the mastermind, Sofie - the grifter, Elliot - the hitter, Hardison - the hacker and the adorable Parker - the thief.

Leverage's season 2 started with a reunion from the group. Nathan, now sober is better than ever. The second season was set 6 months after the group decided to separate during season one's finale. A new character was introduced throughout the season and Sofie went away for soul searching. New schemes, love stories between the characters and humor of the show makes this season equally good with the first season.

Second season finale was good. A cliffhanger. An old enemy came back and finally got what he wanted. And my favorite, Nathan finally admitted that he was a thief becoming a real part of the group. He shouted, "My name is Nathan Ford and I'm a thief". This season finale definitely left me frustrated and satisfied at the same time.

2. Gossip Girl Season 3

You know you love me, xoxo Gossip Girl. Who doesn't know this line? Whether you're a fan or not, you've heard the tag line somewhere.

I actually thought that Gossip Girl would be the best season finale, but my number one proved me wrong.

The season started out good, with Rufus and Lily finally pushing their love, Chuck and Blair together and Dan's new love interest. This was a great season but the season finale was the highlight.

So I watched the season finale and I thought, uhhhm one week later? Well, every thing that happened and one week later, every thing I expected happened. Jenny Humphrey out of Manhattan, Blair and Serena being single again took the vacation, Nathaniel just broke up with Serena started playing and Chuck, going off somewhere, like last season, this time nowhere near Thailand though.

So, what's so special about that? Well, the last two scenes were. Georgina is back, yes the evil girl turned jesus freak and then went back to hell. She took off her coat in front of Dan revealing a big tummy and showing him photos of seismogram allegedly of Dan's unborn child. Chuck, in Prague walking along the Red Light District when two men came to him, mugged him but he wouldn't give up the engagement ring he was supposed to give to Blair and bang, he was shot and left to bleed.

That's it, season three's finale. Talk about Cliffhangers!


1. Grey's Anatomy Season 6

Indeed, the season that changes everything. I don't even know where to start. Grey's Anatomy is one of those show that leaves me emotional after every episode. It's not like other medical drama, Grey's Anatomy is the real thing.

Season 6 started out with a death of an old friend but a beginning of a marriage too, two actually. Throughout the season I laughed, I cried and most of all I learned. But season six finale, never expected it. The thrill was just there.

A shooter was inside the hospital shooting almost all surgeons. His target? Derek Shepherd, Lexie Grey and Dr. Weber. You can't just imagine the anxiety I felt when I watched the finale. I laughed, I cried and most of all I had my hands in my head and constantly saying "Oh my God".

I watched the Grey's Anatomy season finale a day after I've watched Gossip Girl and mentioned before, I thought that Gossip Girl's season finale was the best, but Grey's Anatomy definitely proved me wrong.

Alex Karev got shot but at the end of the show he was still in critical condition. So was Shepherd, he was operated by Christina and woke up at the end of the episode.

I salute the scriptwriters, not just of Grey's Anatomy but all great shows out there. They always seem to find something new and more exciting about the show.

So this blog has come to an end and let me leave you a quote from Grey's Anatomy:

I have lived, I have really really lived. I failed. I’ve been devastated. I’ve been broken. I’ve gone to hell and back. And I’ve also known joy and passion. And I’ve had a great love. See, death for me is not justice. It’s an end of a beautiful journey. I’m not afraid to die, the question is, are you?" - Dr. Weber to the shooter.

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