Project Me

I guess I took another bitter pill and I'm not really sure how to not translate it into writing, but I'll try my best not to. I'm back to where I started, or maybe not. Maybe I changed a bit, but this feeling I have just seems all too familiar. This feeling of loneliness, abandonment and rejection. I know these are all just feelings, and I can see that I'm not alone and I was never abandoned nor rejected, but why do I feel like this?

So instead of focusing my energy into all those feelings, I decided to focus on myself. Half of the year flew like a paper in the air and I'm determined to make the remaining half about myself. I guess before, I always put other people first, because I really didn't find any problem with myself. While others have issues to resolve, I look at myself in the mirror and sees a perfectly satisfied career woman. But deep inside, I know that I have issues that I need to face. 

 

By this time next year, I want to be another person. I want to be more confident with who and what I am. I want to be able to discover myself. I want to be able to stand in a crow without feeling anxious and suffocated. I want to be able to look other people's happiness and not feel left out. I want to be able to make new friends, who understands me and all of the baggage that I have. I want to move my career. I want to be more independent, emotionally, mentally and financially. I want to be the person I want to be. 

So project: ME ME ME is on.