Summers of the Future

Dear Summer,

I feel the heavy wind in my face. You have come and past again. Like I said before, this summer is my last. The rain is starting  to fall and I could feel the cold wind as it envelopes my whole body. There's no sunshine to lift my face to, just the rain falling down. 

You have given me much opportunities this year. I was able to spent the best days of you with my family and closest friends. I walked the stage, smiling despite my hurting foot, as my parents gave me my medal. I walked the streets of Macau and Hong Kong despite my aching legs. I rode a roller coaster in Disneyland, who would've thought I'd do it four times? I spent a nice hot day in a beautiful secluded island, where the sands were white and the ocean was so blue. I got so drunk for the first time with my best friends by my side. And when I'm not doing any adventures with you, I stay at home, fronting my computer, writing from the bottom of my heart or watching something beautiful. 

I wonder what you have for me next year. I wonder where I'll be then. Will I still be the same person? Will I still try to write the pieces of my mind? Will I still be looking forward for you? 

Things will definitely change for me and you. I will never be able to enjoy you the way I've used to for the past years. There will be no more long summer vacation for me, only short periods. Your warm sunshine will continue to rise but I will not be able to take full advantage of it. I will not have sun burns like I used to have. Who knows, I might not even be there for my family. 

My, my, how times have changed. I will miss you again. Another ten months before I get to taste your sweet summer scent or your wonderful sunrises and sunsets. By that time, I hope that I have changed, but still remain to be the same. 

Goodbye Summer, see you next year. I look forward for what you have for me. 

Read my Summers of the Past.

The Adele Addiction

I was browsing through youtube and found my way to a vlogger's page. ItsKingsleyBitch is a vlogger that rants about everything. The way he talks is hilarious and he makes simple things funny. I've been his subscriber for a few months now. One of my favorite things about him is his discussion on "overexposed" things. Last December, as a year ender for his vlog he discussed ten overexposed things of 2010. His number one was Justing Bieber and if you want to have a good laugh, you should definitely watch it here. 

Its been quite awhile now that I've visited his page. I browse through his videos and found out he discussed about Adele's Rolling in the Deep as "overexposed". At the beginning of the video, he acknowledge Adele's talent and well, you should just watch the video yourself.

Its true, Adele has been in the industry since 2008 and is only gaining international prominence now that she decided to go in Hollywood. I know her song Chasing Pavements hit the charts and did well on radio plays, but it was a long due fame. Chasing Pavement started making wave early last year. And though I've always love good music, it is only last year that I've truly appreciated Chasing Pavement. 

At that time, I didn't know much about Adele and I honestly thought she was an African-American. Call it stereotyping, but Soul music has always been with the black community (Aretha Franklin, anyone?). It was only 'till I've watched Adele live that I realized what a beautiful singer she is. 

I am truly lucky that the first time I fell in love with Adele, it was during a heartfelt performance. She sang Someone Like You in the Brit Awards with so much emotions, it almost made me cry. It didn't help that the man introducing her had so many great words for her. Just from that one song, I knew that 21, her album, was beautiful. I didn't waste anytime and stole some music (lol). 

Ever since then, there's not a week that I don't listen to her song. During the first week of listening to 21, I played it everyday, nonstop, no kidding. I've almost memorized all her songs. I also have her 19 album, the one where Chasing Pavement is from.

Unlike other artists, Adele brings broken and pain to a whole new level. Its not just the lyrics that makes it so sad, its the way she put all her emotions when she's singing. She sings so beautifully, you'll be captivated and be lost for awhile. And she's one of the few singers who sings better when live, because you get to see all her emotions. Like that from the Brit Awards, you can see her tearing up after singing the song. 

My favorite songs from her 21 album are Turning Tables, Someone Like You and Don't You Remember. But all of her songs are truly amazing. Her debut album, 19, was great too. My ultimate favorite song from Adele is from that album, First Love. Other favorites include Melt My Heart to Stone and Make You Feel My Love

First Love is a favorite because of the irony of the song. The title itself makes you think its about falling in love. The tune and the melody of the song is so happy, you wouldn't think its a very sad song if you weren't listening closely. First Love is about falling out of love. The arrangement, the lyrics, the voice and even the happy tune is perfect for the song. 

There's nothing more to say, because Adele's music speak for itself. If you haven't listened to her yet, then you're missing real and good music, something that is rare in this era.

Here's the lyrics to First Love.

So little to say but so much time

Despite my empty mouth the words are in my mind

Please wear the face the one where you smile

Because you lighten up my heart when i start to cry

Forgive me first love but i'm tired

I need to get away to feel again

Try to understand why

Don't get so close to change my mind

Please wipe that look out of your eyes

It's bribing me to doubt myself

Simply it's tiring

This love has dried up and stay behind

And if i stay i?ll be alive

Then choke on words i'd always hide

Excuse me first love but we're through

I need to taste the kiss from someone new

Forgive me first love but i'm too tired

I'm bored to say the least and i lack desire

Forgive me first love forgive me first love

Forgive me first love forgive me first love forgive me

Forgive me first love forgive me first love

We Have Love

It’s kind of depressing how things change. Earlier, I was depressed because of the near ending of a television series I’ve already watched twice. I went to church feeling my heart getting heavier. I couldn’t understand why, thinking that it was because of the series ending, I brushed it off. I still prayed for calmness and peacefulness for my heart.

The heavy heart wasn’t cause by the series, it was caused by a long due realization that finally sunk in. I’ve always known that after graduating, things will be different. I will be leaving some friends behind, while I’ll be making new ones on the way. I thought I was prepared leaving the people I’ve come to known for more than two years now. I was wrong, because hearing their voices made me realize how difficult it is to let go of people you’ve given your emotions to.

Realizing that I might see them less and less and even not seeing them in a long time, is depressing. Who would’ve thought that such mismatch people can be so alike? The world really works in a humorous and interesting way.

No more late nights at the long table. No more surprise birthday parties. No more late night talk with anyone from the group. No more ice cream night. No more movie night. No more hanging out, talking about nothing and everything.

Just some few things I will miss doing with the group. I’ve realized just last March how emotionally attached I was with the kids, or rather, the group. From the Valentines surprise, to the cry fest at the long table made me grasp the bond that we have.

Things will change, that’s something out of my control. Time will change for us, we’ll grow older, we’ll grow wiser and we might not see each other in a long time. We’ll change, but we’ll remain the same. We’ll always have that two years together. We’ll always the photos and the videos of what was once. We’ll always have our hearts, bonded by a thing called love.