What Career?

Today was a window to what the future has to offer us. The job fair that was organized by Miss Annie Manzano forced us to wear slacks and a formal blouse. It also forced us to make a resume/CV and act formal to our future employers. April seems so near and yet so far. There's still five subjects I have to survive before calling it quits with the school I fell in love with. 

I personally wanted to try the job fair, oh but yes, I was full of complaints before the event. I didn't want to go because its a Wednesday and the time should be allotted for my Thesis. But I realized I needed to do it, not because I wanted to have a job immediately but because I wanted to experienced being interviewed. Interviews are part of applying a job and I wanted to know how it feels and what I can do to better myself with it.

The experience? Well, it was great. I was able to try it and I had fun at the same time. I was able to reflect on the things I usually take for granted. It was a really amazing experience but unfortunately my heart and my passion is with something else.

The plan? Well, the plan is to go to Manila and apply a job at TV5, because its still booming and their still hiring. And then, its from there. Wherever I go, I would trust the Lord. I plan to go to Singapore and work their but I also plan to go to Hollywood and maybe work their as a script writer. Really, I want to work in the entertainment industry, but off screen. It sounds glamorous, but its really crap and its going to post a lot of challenges. 

But don't worry, that's not my only plan. I also plan to go abroad and study masters. I plan to also study culinary arts. I plan to write my own book. I plan to .... too many plans! The world is full of opportunities if I only look a little closer. But the goal has always been the same, and that's to become a millionaire (hahaha) :)

The thing is, I hate routine jobs. I don't want to be stuck in a cubicle, just writing the same things. I want to be able to explore the world. I want to learn continuously with different experiences everyday. I want to live my life with no regrets. 

I'm nervous, who isn't? But the prospects of beginning a new adventure, a new chapter of my book called Life is exciting, its thrilling. I'll surely miss school, the friends that I made there but I know, I'm going to make a new home when I'm out there, out in the real world. 

The future? Well, let's just say that the future is something I look forward to. 

The Hunt for Love

It is a difficult path but I survived it. I can't remember the moment I decided to search for it, to hunt for it and to feel it. 

I was a love hunter and will always will be. I hunted love and what it has to offer to me. I walked the path of woman who fell in love easily, not just romantically, but with anything that love has to offer. It was probably because of the "puppy love," I had when I was in high school or the early years of my college life that left me "heart broken." Being in a sulky place as being "heart broken," I knew I needed to go on for the search of what they called true love. I thought to myself that maybe when I found this love, I would be complete. I thought, I needed to find this love that could fill the empty part of my life, the hole in my heart. I didn't know what I was searching for. 

I started going on from one place to another, crossing roads I've never dreamed of, until finally, I found it. I found what I have been looking for. How stupid was I not to notice it? It has been with me all this time and I haven't even tried to ask myself. 

When I found the love I was searching for, I kept it to myself. I was happy with what I have. I don't know why I kept it until now. Was I ashamed? I don't know. All I knew was I wanted to enjoy the moment I was having, feeling the true bliss of what this love has to offer me. It was then that I started seeing things in a different light. 

The love that I had found was the love that filled not only my heart, but my soul as well. I found the love that God had to offered me and the love I had to offer Him. The truth is, I'm not a Jesus Freak (sorry for the term) nor am I a the "Praise the Lord," type. I don't understand what I am, I can't put myself in the map of people who claim to Christians, for sometimes, I disagree with them. I can't put myself in the map of people who claim to be holy, for I know that I'm not. I cannot claim anything, but I can claim everything because of the Lord. 

I am secure with the relationship that I have with the Lord. I praise him, glorify him and talk to him in my own little ways. Sometimes, I forget to really talk to him, but never had I forgotten to thank him. Before I go to bed, I always say, 'Thank You Lord,' and I know He understands what I mean by it. 

I have always been an optimistic person, always, way before I really had a relationship with the Lord. But now that I have something with the Lord, my optimism is different. This is because, my positive outlooks in life has an added character, and that is the Lord. I have prayed to him, even when I haven't found this love and he gave me things, even when I didn't acknowledged it was his work. What more now? What more now that I have acknowledged him? What more now that I knew he'll give me the things that I desire in the right time?

Yes, the Lord has been so giving to me. The small bumps that I faced always seemed so small compared to the victories that he has given me. Oh yes, I had my fair share of tears. Some I say to the world, some I carry silently and emotionally. Some I let him do the work but often times, I do the work and ask for his guiding hand.

If you go and hunt for love, you will eventually find it and when you do find it, you'll realize it has always been there. The adventure is just something the Lord spiced up for us, but his love has always been there, all it really needed was a little less talk and a little more reflection.

I know, when you look at me, you can't tell, I don't claim to be anything. I will make mistakes and will make great sins. My mouth may not be the purest and my thoughts maybe full of sins sometimes. My heart may carry hate and anger sometimes. I may desire flesh over divinity. 

But let me tell you this, at the end of the day, I have a home to go running to. I have a home in the Lord's heart and I will always make up for the sins that I have done. I know that he will always save me. I have a home, how about you?

The Lord never left you, so smile, listen to yourself and you'll hear him whispering to your soul. 

May the Lord bless you. :D

Death and Love

"That can't be done," Death said in a cold hard voice.


"But I've done everything you have asked me," said a man crying at the end of Death's robe.


"I have never asked you anything!" Death said angrily.
"You humans, you think you can summon me here and tell me what to do?" Death disgustedly added.


Death looked at the man at his feet. He was a handsome young man, his eye's were the hues of blue and the feature of his face were perfectly match to complement each other. The blue eyes looked at him, at least what can be seen underneath his bloody red robe.


"I am your master," the man said hardly. "I brought you here and you are going to do what I want!" he added. He stood up on his feet and pointed his finger at death,
"You are going to bring her back! You took her, well you can bring her back to me!"


Death sized the man and laughed in his head. His master? Huh, no one is his master, said Death to himself. It angered him but fascinated him that someone would be brave enough to tell him that.


"Master? I am no man's servant young man. I can take you here now," he said softly. He stepped toward the young man.
"It was her due time, and thus I reaped what was mine to reap. But you, you will be forever mine for you made me your master, the moment you said the spell to summon me," Death said in a very low voice, almost like a whisper.
"Have gratitude for you are still breathing while looking at me," Death added.


The young man looked defeated. He was only trying to bring back the wife that he had, the wife who died in their wedding day.


"But please," said the young man weeping again.


Death looked at the man. Being one of the Eternal Being, Death doesn't feel any emotion. 


"I shall give you the greatest gift that I can give," Death said.
"My kiss is what you're looking for and thus I shall give you what you seek," Death added.


Suddenly, the room was silent, the man stopped breathing and Death stared at the lifeless body.