Before the Official Break!

While everybody is busy trying to fight their insomnia and get to sleep because of Misa De Gallo, I, on the other hand, is busy getting tired for the day hoping to have a good night sleep. It's been days since I had a good night sleep. You know the ones where you wake up and you don't feel tired at all? Just satisfied and happy? I haven't felt like that for a very long time, around two weeks. 

I used to be an early sleeper. When I was in high school, I couldn't stand sleeping late! I usually sleep around 8:00-8:30. I miss those days. It's 1:35 in my computer clock and I'm tired but I still have the energy to write.

Today was fun! I had fun with my college soul mates Hanna, Sheena and Fiona. We had lunch together and had really fun talking to each other. When it's just the four of us, everything seems to be right. We always laugh even if we have different personalities. Fiona and I probably have the most similar attitudes, we're so similar, there's not a day that we don't argue (in a sweet friendly way). In the end, we both shut up. Sheena and Hanna have the most compatible attitude. When one is weak in one point, the other is strong (Voldemort and Harry ang drama!) After the simple and late (Fifi was the first one to arrive) lunch, we all went to SM. We separated ways with Fifi and the three of us sticked together with the plan of going to WOF (as in dog!) kidding, World of Fun, and buying me a ticket for my trip home tomorrow (today?). The ticket line was hell! But, lets not dwell on my suffering. 

We had fun at WOF with a kiddy game called "The Butterfly Garden," and had a goal to have as many ticket as possible. Although it was a really kiddy game and it was only in a very short time, we exchanged our WOF tickets with rings! :) Yey!!

But unfortunately I had to cut our fun because I really needed to go home (bhaus) because I had a gift to give to a friend who's living in a few hours. I immediately went to the person as soon as I arrived and gave her the gift. I knew she loves Cecelia Ahern so I gave her one of her books. I hope she's happy, she looked happy though when she opened it. The message in one of the pages was really well thought with rhymes on it (right Fi, Shin and Han? hehehe ^_^).

I was supposed to pack immediately but I got stuck with talking to the three boys at the bhaus. Those three boys are really fun to be together, we didn't even notice the time. It was almost 12 when we separated ways. We had fun at doing games, cards and logical and stupid games. I didn't even notice how tired I was.

When I arrived at my room I packed immediately. Now my luggage is full and really heavy! It's because of the extra baggages (THE GIFTS!). One of the three musketeers went up the room, Edward, to copy a film. We had a little chat about some things. This time I was the one who was really talkative (LOL!). See, when Edward and I are alone, he's usually the one who talks which is so unusual, because I'm usually the one who talks. He is such a talkative person when there are only a few people. Last night, we talked for about an hour  and he talked most of the time. Hay naku! 

I think I've done much writing and chit chat. I think I can finally sleep. I'll wake up early tomorrow because my float is at 11AM. I'm excited to go home! :)

The Answered Prayer

Today has been one of my best fulfilled day since second semester has started. This morning I woke up feeling like I should be happy. As one of my principles, happiness is a decision. So I decided to be happy, and I was! I was still at bed when I decided to play some music and then a song pop in my head. I hurriedly searched for the song and played it. It was then I realize that it might have been the Lord's doing for making me think of that song. 

See, I've been feeling low for the past few days. I've been going to church for three consecutive days, searching for solitude and promise of my sanity. I was confused, upset, hurt and many other negative feelings. I've been crying for two nights and still, I haven't found the peace that I wanted even when I'm calling unto the Lord's name. The Lord is amazing.

The song that popped into my head? None other than Eraserheads' With a Smile. And as of that moment, the most compelling lyrics from the song are the words, "Don't be scared of the things that could go wrong along the way," and "Girl I'll stay through the bad times, even if I have to fetch you everyday." Call me insane or what, but it was as if the Lord was singing to me. He was telling me that everything will be okay and that he's always on my side, no matter what. 

The song told me what to do and that's to lift my head and smile. I now know what my morning song will be. 

His grace didn't stop there. When I went to church, the gospel was talking to me. I didn't know that today was Joyful Sunday and the gospel talked about real happiness and joy. He was talking to me again, telling me that he is the real joy. I almost cried as I listened to the priest dissecting the gospel, I felt like every word was intended for me. 

Sometimes, we get too busy pursuing happiness, we tend to forget the things that are around us. Sometimes, we need to feel sorrows, because it is only till then that joy is appreciated. As what the priest said, citing Lebanese poet - Kahlil Gibran, "Sorrows carves an empty space in our hearts, but this very empty space will be the one filled with joy."

The Lord meant to tell me that there's always going to be sunshine in the rain and that all the sorrows and pains that I'm going through, will be replaced with much joy and happiness. 

This was the answers to my prayers. For two days I asked him what to do, and he told me. I am very overwhelmed by the feeling of thinking that the Lord answered my prayer and was talking to me directly. He works in mysterious ways and I love it. 

This Sunday was awesome. I got to spend it with a very close friend and with the Lord rejoicing in my heart. :)

Today is December 12, 2010, the day the Lord talked to me in many forms. 

Thank you Lord, I love you so much. 

It's a Saturday!

I began my Saturday in a very different way today. I woke up early to go to Confession. The rain was pouring but it didn't stop me to want to go to confession. It's been so long since I had my last confession. Rey accompanied me to Sto. Rosario. 


I had some issues with my confession but I shouldn't say it. Anyway, I was drawn to the prayer room again and somehow, my heart seems lighter whenever I'm there. I don't want to be a hypocrite, ever! But the prayer room, its as if I can feel the Lord inside me. I'm very happy with it. 


After finishing our Christian duties, we stopped by at Unitop to buy a water pump for my water. The day went by fast. Before I knew it, I was on my way to school. 


We had pizzas in our class. The thickness of my skin (hahaha) was revealed to our teacher when I told her that it was almost Christmas and thus she should let us eat pizzas. :) It worked anyway! It was a delicious class. :)


Before I knew it, I was heading to the dorm and it was dinner time. Time flies by so fast! It's Saturday which means its movie night for me. I invited my Red Gate barkadas in my room, because I was alone, to watch a film. Although we didn't understand the movie much, I was glad to have seen it with them. After watching the said film, we all went down to the Long Table. There we stayed for awhile. One of our ates promised to treat us to ice cream, but we ended up eating pizza anyway. 


It was such a fun night. Its one of those nights that made me smile. I'll surely miss these nights after graduation. :)