Value of Love

Let's talk about the big word, LOVE. To tell you honestly, I can't say that I've already fallen in love. To me, love is too much of a word to use. I can't say the 3-word phrase to someone until I really mean it. That's what makes me different than others. I know that there are people out there who has the same views as mine, but right now, most teenagers used the word LOVE so much, it has lost its value to those people. It's overrated, really, it is. Just because you feel you're heart beating so fast, or that you can't breathe anymore, doesn't mean its already love. Maybe your just having a panic attack or whatever. 

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The word love is overused. Honestly, I think that most people don't even know what it means anymore because they've exploited its merit. It's not that I'm against love or whatever, I'm actually in love with love. The concept of love is too beautiful, too idealistic, too good to be true. Imagine, having someone who will understand you, who will accept you for who you are, who will be the one to finish your sentences. Imagine someone who will go through all your bad moods and still manages to make you smile. Now, that's something everyone would like to feel. 

Also, I'm not saying don't take chances. All I'm saying is be sure of your feelings for that someone before you say the 3-word phrase. Whether or not that person accept your feelings, at least your sure of what you feel. Being sure lessen the feeling of regret later. You can only treasure the value of love if your sure. So you asked, how can I be sure? Well, its really up to you. If you think your ready and he's worth it, why not. Just remember, when you say those words, your giving up a part of yourself. Your giving something you can't take back. 

Here's the part where you're giving up a piece of your heart. Imagine your heart, every time you say "I love you" to a person you take a part of it. Each time, your heart gets smaller and smaller. Imagine, you're finally meeting the "right one". You check on your heart, and you see how small it is, and that's all you can give to the "one". You realize you've wasted so many I Love Yous to the wrong person. Going back to my point, be certain. 

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I actually don't know why I'm ranting about LOVE. 

Maybe because I believe in the idea that True Love Waits. 

My own version of Prince Charming will come someday and when I'm sure of it, I'll tell him how much he means to me. 

Secrets ...

Everyone have secrets, of that I'm sure. There are things you don't want to share even to your closest friends. Maybe you're afraid to be judge and misunderstood or maybe its just a social taboo to talk about it. So you keep it within yourself, not saying anything. Its when you really want to tell the world about it but you can't because maybe they'll condemn you. It's a secret you won't tell. 

Suddenly, someone tells you they're going through the same thing and suddenly the world is lighter. Today, I realized I'm not the only person on the boat. I thought about other people who are struggling with their feelings about something and how it is very difficult for them. It isn't really a social taboo but as what a friend say, I'm afraid of social condemnation even though it's happening in the status quo right now. This is a situation where none would understand if you're not on the same page as me or if you're not open-minded. Maybe I am afraid of social condemnation, I'm also afraid of society's dictation. Then again, I've always been a pro-choice. I tried not to be hypocritical with things. I am a woman of principles. I've always looked at people in a different view because I don't want to judge them base on society's norms. This is what being a UPian has taught me, that there's more than meets the eye. So I choose not to share this secret because I feel that some people aren't ready for it. Believe me, it has nothing to do with sexuality, if that's my problem, it would be really easy to say it out loud. It's something more, more personal than I thought. 

I'm glad to know that someone is actually there with me on the boat. 

Some secrets are worth the keep, they are the ones you'd rather want to have as a good memory. 

What's your secret?