5 Songs with Great MVs

I've been meaning to blog about good MVs. There are very interesting and great MVs out there. What's great about the songs in this lists are that they're already good songs with great lyrics and great melodies. On top of that, they're music videos capture the essence of the songs. You know what I mean? You have a great song such as Born this Way and though the MV was artistically created, it really didn't live up to what the song mean. All of the MVs follow a certain story line, like you're watching a mini film. All of these MVs gives new meaning to the song and makes the song even greater than it already is.

5. If I Were A Boy - Beyonce

I really enjoy watching this video. The song is lyrically good and pair it up with the beautiful soul voice of Beyonce, you have an instant hit. The song and the video is about the double standards of society when it comes to a relationship of a man and a woman. The video lets us see the vantage point of a woman playing the "man" role in a relationship. The viewers are lead to believe that Beyonce is the "man" in the house. However, in the end, the whole video is just the total opposite. Its a great story line and what I love most about the video is that its in black and white.

Lyrics: If I were a boy, I think I could understand how it feels to love a girl, I swear I'd be a better man.




4. Someday - Nickelback

I love this song from Nickelback and its probably my favorite from them. The song is about a failed relationship wherein one person doesn't want to let go of what they have thus the lyrics "someday, somehow we're gonna make it out alright but not right now." The MV gives us the same impression, there's a woman crying, his boyfriend just a few feet away from her on what seems to be a huge fight. She leaves the room with her suitcase and went inside her car with the man trying to stop her, but she doesn't listen. The story continues like this until the end, where the twist of the story is revealed. And though the song is actually about making it through a tough time of a relationship and the MV doesn't really mirrors this; I think that the MV gives a totally new meaning to the song. That's why I think its a great MV for the song.


Lyrics: Let's rewrite an ending that fits instead of a Hollywood horror.




3. Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down

I love love this song from one of my favorite bands, 3 Doors Down. The song is about a confuse person in a relationship. The person loves his/her partner but he/she has to make decision in life that would eventually turn the relationship sour and thus, "let me go." The lyrics of the song is absolutely beautiful, like a poem woven in silk (cheesy). The video is a different turn in the song/ It tells a story of two high school lovers whose relationship went sour after the boy discovered an upsetting secret echoing the lyrics, "You love me but you don't know who I am. I 'm turn between this part I lead and where I stand." What I love about the MV is its cliffhanging ending, so watch it and love the song.

Lyrics: One more kiss could be the best thing and one more lie could be the worse. 




2. Because I'm A Girl - Kiss

This is actually a Korean song but I really have to put it here. You can look up the english translation of the lyrics on the web. I love this MV and it always make me teary eyed. The MV is a story of love and great sacrifices. A few years back, this MV made it in FB and it went "viral" but even before then, I love this MV. This was released back in 2001 so its pretty old but the story is timeless. The song is good too.


1. Thinking of You - Katy Perry

Did you know that this song is the Katy Perry's worst performing single and her lowest selling single? Unbelievable because I absolutely love this song and the lyrics! Katy herself wrote this song. At first, when I heard this song, I thought it was about cheating and all that but when I fully understood the lyrics, it was everything but that! The song tells the story of a woman longing for a lost loved one. The MV is absolutely gorgeous and so was Katy Perry. The video takes us back to 19-something into a life of a young woman and his lover whom she lost during the war. She constantly thinks of her past lover and couldn't bring herself to move on. I think that this was Katy's best video to date and its truly heart wrenching. I never get tired of watching this video.

Lyrics: Oh won't you walk through and bust in the door and take me away. No more mistakes, coz in your eyes I'd like to stay.




I hope you all enjoy the songs and MVs that I posted. ^_^

Boredom finally setting in

Wow, it's been very long since the last time I blogged. I don't even know why its taken me this long. I have so many things to blog about but I tend to get very lazy and ending up not blogging about.

I am honestly bored already. A few months of vacation is nice but its finally sinking in. I need to get a job, not because I need the money but because I need to be out there. I'm so freaking bored. For some reason, I feel that my confidence is slowly wavering and its probably one of the reasons why it takes me so long to send a resume. Anyway, I finally got the courage and sent my first resume today. I really hope that I get an interview.

For the mean time, I'm currently working online. But writing with my laptop and not having a proper place to do my work is not really good. I tend to segue and watch TV or just browse through the net.

Oh well, hopefully I could go back and write my list blogs. I'm so excited to write my list blogs about music and movies.

Long Live the 5th Column!

I am currently watching the sci-fi TV show V. I am loving this series! I can't get enough of it and you don't know how disappointed I was when I found out that it got cancelled! Really?? Why does good shows have to be cancel? 

Anyway, because of V, I'm thinking of watching more sci-fi shows with similar story lines. In the show, V stands for the Visitors, a humanoid alien that has arrived to Earth and claims that they are stranded and would only need some small amount of minerals, enough for them to go back to their home planet. In return, they would share their technology to human kind. But a group of people lead by FBI Agent Evans, learned that the Vs are here to stay for purposes they are yet to know. And, the Vs aren't what they claim to be, they have human skin but deep inside they're true form is reptile-like. 

There are other people who are against the plan of Anna, the Queen and high commander of the Vs. One particular V, John May, was the first to abandon the Vs. He developed human emotions and even married a human. As the story goes, there are other Vs who have developed human emotion and cannot be controlled by Anna anymore. 

The group of humans and Vs who are fighting together against Anna is called the 5th Column. Thus the title of this blog. I myself is a self-proclaimed member of the 5th Column, geeky right? Hahaha. But I am a geek. I love these kinds of Sci-Fi. I'm even thinking of watching Star Trek, and yes I am a Star Wars fan!

While everyone is sucking it up over the end of Harry Potter, I had a good thing to distract me from it. Yes, I haven't seen it yet, but I will soon, and V comforts me and distract me from thinking over the awesomeness of the HP 7.2. 

I recommend this show to everyone. John May lives! Long live the 5th Column.!

15 Great Animated Films

To celebrate my 100th post I would be presenting a lists of my favorite animated films. I've always loved animated films, they will always be a joy to watch. This list is not in any order, it'll be too difficult for me to choose which one is number one and which is number fifteen. So basically, these are random numbers.

1. Toy Story 3

I'm pretty sure you saw that coming. Probably the reason why Toy Story is most loved by everyone from all ages is because, at one point in our lives, we only had our toys as our friends. Who doesn't remember talking to a plastic shape like a human being, making it walk, fly and even drink tea? Toy Story 3 is a great animated film that teaches a lot of things. As one friend told me, its a cartoon for big boys and girls. From what I saw, the film is telling us how to move on and let go of some things in order to grow up. Just because you've moved on, doesn't mean you've forgotten. It also teaches of us of real friendship and real camaraderie. Plus, this won best animated film, but who cares about awards anyway. 

2. Up

The most compelling story line of this awesome animated film is the romance between grandpa and grandma. What's amazing about it is, its only in the movie for less than 15 minutes and yet everyone teared up when that book of memories was flipped by grandpa finding a written note by his beloved wife. Of course, there's the very cute character of Russel and Dog (Doug). This one has probably the finest animation from Pixar.

3. Wall-E

Almost thirty minutes in the film and no words being uttered and people who has seen this film wouldn't even notice. The flawless detail and animation of this film is truly captivating. The character of Wall-E in the beginning is touching and true. The way he held an umbrella for Eve in the rain is an unforgettable scene. For me, a great story is being told even when nothing has been said. The story of Wall-E and his character build up was most compelling during the first few minutes of the film, when nothing was said. Of course, the film  bringing a message about the continuous destruction of the environment is another reason why this film is great.

4. The Fox and the Hound

Most people would have probably forgotten about this Walt Disney classic, but I will never forget this one. This film is one of my earliest memory of being exposed to animated film and Walt Disney. I will never forget the night I smiled and cried. This is a story about an unlikely friendship of a fox (Tod) and a hound (Copper). Their instinct tells them they are natural enemies, but growing up together, they tried to preserve their friendship. Things went a sour turn until the two of them drift apart and Copper hunted Tod. This film tells a wonderful tale of friendship and how it overcomes boundaries. This should be seen by children all over the world and if you haven't seen this one then you're missing one of the greatest Walt Disney creation ever.

5. The Fantastic Mr. Fox

I don't have much to say about this funny animated film, except that it has a mix of humor and sense. Its the first time I've actually seen a heist animated film and it truly is funny and touching at the same time.

6. 5 Centimeters Per Second

I love this animated film. I've talked about it and you can read more about it here. This film is simply amazing. And by the way, yes, its Japanese.

7. The Little Mermaid

I might be bias for this one. Little Mermaid is my favorite Disney Princess and for good reasons. If you look deeper into the story, you'd actually notice that its a romantic tale torn apart because of social stratification and standard. Ok, so maybe its just me over thinking. But I love Ariel's character and even the supporting ones, you have the evil Ursula, the cute Flounder and the funny Sebastian. I think that its one of the greatest animated Disney film ever!

8. The Iron Giant

This films brings back many memories. It was released on 1999 and even today, it still holds a special place in my heart. Like any other films, this is a story of an unlikely friendship between a robot and a child. I don't think I can do justice if I tell you the plot in my own words, so read it here. Twelve years after its release it still holds so much memories for me. This actually a very touching story. 

9. Anastasia

Anastasia, unlike what most of my friends claimed, is not a Disney film. In fact, it is the first animated film distributed by Fox Animated Studios. Its uncanny resemblance of the princess plot makes others to believe it is by Disney. So anyway, one of the great thing about this film is that it is based on an urban legend which claimed that Anastasia, the youngest daughter of the Romanovs from the Russian Imperial Family survived the brutal murder of her family. The film takes us to a journey introducing us to a young woman named Ania who can't remember her past and was commissioned to play the part of Anastasia but in the end turns out to be the real princess.Whats memorable about the film is that it brings an ending for the Anastasia urban legend, which is far from reality. I love this film because of its great sound tracks. Music such as Once Upon a December, Journey to the Past and In the Dark of the Night are just few examples of the great musical performance by this film.

10. Monsters Inc.

I think that Monsters Inc is one of the most under-appreciated animated film. The heart warming story about  scary monsters and kids is brought to life in this Pixar film. But instead of scary monsters, they're simply monsters living like any other human beings in an alternate world and their job is to be the bogeyman of children. The most unforgettable about this film is cutie Boo, the child that lost her way in the monster world and found herself attached to the two monsters who took care of her.

11. The Girl Who Leapt Through Time

The Girl Who Leapt Through Time is a beautiful story about a student who crashed into a train with her bicycle and was supposedly killed by it, however at the moment of the impact she closed her eyes and when she opened it, she found herself a few hours before the crash. The story revolves around her always leaping through time. I think that this one is the one of the most beautiful animated film. The melancholic tone yet the humor was perfectly combined. It's a film no one should missed.

12. Finding Nemo

I think that Finding Nemo is one of the best Pixar film out there. The story is heart warming. Its an adventure story mixed with humor, love and care. The story of a father going to extremes to protect his child isn't new, but somehow, Finding Nemo gives the story line a fresh approach, other than the fact that its actually animated.

13. Ratatouille

Ratatouille will always hold a special place in my heart due to the circumstances when I was watching it the first time in cinemas, just a personal attachment. The film is a story of success of two characters and that isn't often the case in most films. And though I hate rats, after watching this, I've actually considered them friendly until one of them ruined my loaf of bread. 

14. Howl's Moving Castle

Another brilliant creation of Hayao Miyazaki. I like, like, like this film! Ok, so maybe its because of Howl's good look that really got me into this film but the story is really good. Like all Miyazaki films, the details is beautiful. The film is about Sophie, a young hat maker but a witch's curse turned her into a 90-year-old grandma. This lead her to an adventure in finding the witch and leading her to another wizard named Howl. Its truly is a fantastic film. 

15. Spirited Away

Lastly but definitely not the least is the film that put Hayao Miyazaki into the map. Long before this film, Miyazaki is already a  respected and well established film maker in Japan. Spirited Away is an Academy Award winner for Best Animated Feature Film. This truly is one of the best animated film in history. Its one of the most celebrated animated film in Japan and in the world. The story of Chichiro lives on. I don't want to tell the plot, I might ruined it or spoil it so just read it here.

I hope you enjoy this post. I grew up with animated films, from Disney and Japan. Animation will always be a great part for my love of films. And with animation, you can almost never go wrong with it. I hope that you can all watch the films I've suggested. You should watch all of Pixars and Hayao Miyazaki's films. 

You Realize

And then suddenly, something happens unexpected to your life. You're suddenly left alone in the corner, wondering what you're going to do next.

Life is unfair. Shit happens. These are the realities of the real world.

You think to yourself, "So where am I going now?" Then you wander around, thinking of being lost for awhile. To your surprise, you find yourself somewhere and you wouldn't even thought you'd be there, but you are. So you take a deep breathe and smile.

You realize, being lost is a part of being found.

You realize, wandering would eventually take you to wonderful places.

You realize, smiling is easier than sulking around.

Heart of Life

Believe in love. A phrase I repeated so many times already. Despite seeing so many people failing in their journey through love, I didn't faltered. 

Waiting and creating happiness has what I have been doing for the past 5 years of my life. Let me clarify, I'm only 20, and I started believing in real, sincere and true love when I was fifteen. Even then, I was too young to understand the word love. My idea of it was hormones rising, heart beating, sweaty palms and stuttering in front of the person. As most of you know, that isn't love. And I'm still too young to understand about it but at least I have some idea now. 

Too many songs have been written about love. Most of them are my favorites. But I stumbled upon a song that tells the tale of love in a very short and yet prolific lyrics. 

John Mayer's Heart of Life is a song that summarizes what love is. There's pain yet there's also hope and happiness. It's becoming one of my rainy songs. And though some may not agree with me, I think that this song is full of hope about love, despite it being painful sometimes. 

I hate to see you cry
Laying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
So turn off your tears and listen

Pain throws you heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No, it won't all go the way, it should
But I know the heart of life is good

You know it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
But then the circle of your firends
Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No, it won't all go the way, it should
But I know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who's misunderstood
But I know the heart of life is good

I know it's good 

Good Food!!!

The patron saints of Ormoc City are Sts. Peter and Paul. Last June 29 was the feast celebration of these two saints that have protected the small sleepy town known as Ormoc. 

I got very excited realizing that I would be able to experience the fiesta in my hometown again. I honestly can't remember the last time I celebrated this wonderful day with my Ormocanon brothers and sisters. As Filipino tradition dictates, people who are living in the city will serve a "hikay" in bisaya, "pakain" in tagalog, and a "banquet" in English.  

This year, I had one invitation but my parents, you can say a socialite (because of her profession) has many invitations. I decided to go with her first two invitations. Good food all over the place!

First stop was Ormoc Villa Hotel. My mother was invited by a good old friend. The hotel, owned by the IAL clan (L stands for Larrazabal), stands near the coastline of Ormoc. Although its been there for quite a long time already, this was the only time I remember that I have tasted their food. Because I had two more places to go, I only ate a little. I chose potatos from the goat kaldereta and the meat of course, and then lechon. For dessert, I only had sweet mangoes.

Second stop was with my mother's old friend, Sabin Larrazbal (SAL), another member of the L clan. There home is where we usually go during the fiesta. They are known to serve good food. Yes, I love their food, they also own a hotel that caters the food. Guess what? There was a lamb kalderata! ^_^ So I, again, took potatoes from this dish but this time, no meat. There, at the edge of the table was one of my favorite dish, "lechon baka!" (roasted cow). Now the SAL family are known to serve this kind of food. I rarely eat one, in fact, I can only eat one whenever they have an event and my mom is invited and I tag along. For desserts, I took the Filipino dessert "puto," a cake that I don't know what the name is, and one of my favorites, buko pandan!

My last stop was with no other than my best friend's home. By the time I got there, it was almost two in the afternoon. Most of their visitors have gone home. I was still able to catch another old friend though. My choice of food? You guess right, there was kaldereta! This time it was pork kalderata! I've been telling myself that kaldereta is the main dish! So again, I took the potatoes, but instead of cooked with the dish, these potatoes were fried and were put on top of the kaldereta, so at least they tasted differently. I also had shrimps wrapped in bacon, the meat in the kaldereta and then some beef steak. The desserts, my best friend, Odessa, served a cake (I don't know what the name is) with gelatin and mango on top and then Leche Flan (YUM!). 

From Left: Me, Odessa, her father Tito Clement, Joy and Candice

Happy Fiesta Ormoc! Thank you for giving me a chance to eat good food and spend some time with good company. 

Click and Develop

I've always been fond of photography. There are moments that are worth capturing in films. 


Last time, my best friends and I had a photoshoot for vanity sake. I was their photographer. Here are some of the photos I took.

Quality of the shots are not that good because I already resized them. Do I have the potential to be a photographer? Haha

Confuse (Post Graduation Syndrome?)

I am currently employed by a foundation here in Ormoc City, my home town. It's actually just a project, they needed writers, and my mom is a member so she suggested me. I was told to look for a team of three to four people to help me with the project. 

Currently, I've been waking up early in the morning to prepare for interviews. I've only been in this job for less than a week, but its really tiring. I cannot imagine doing this kind of job everyday! :| But I actually enjoy it, I get to learn many things. 

I must admit that agreeing to the project was my way of saying, "I'm not yet ready for the real world." Its not because I don't have confidence or that I lack the right character and attitude to barge into the "real world." I am not yet ready because I haven't answered one of most important questions of my life, "What do I want to do?" Honestly, if I had my way I would travel the world - experience a different culture, taste the life of a foreigner, learn the native's language and so on. But I don't have that luxury, so I am still thinking of what I really want to do with my life. 

I had so many dreams before. I wanted to be in television as a segment producer and a head writer. I wanted to be a journalist and live the life where passion becomes the bread winner. I wanted to become a hotel manager and smile at people all the time. My favorite dream is to become an author someday. I purely want to write out of my imagination and I don't care which genre it'll fall. Today, I can write a fantasy book and maybe the next day I can write romance. I still have these dreams. The problem is, I don't know which to start. 

I can still remember a workshop done by my Alma mater for the seniors. The school invited some speakers to talk to the seniors. One of the exercises was to close our eyes and imagine ourselves where we'll be in five years and then ten years. When I opened my eyes, I had a smile on my face, almost all of us had a smile on our face. Then the speaker told us to look at the person beside us and introduce ourselves as the person we see five years and ten years from now. This is exactly what I said, "Hi, I am May April M. Jimenea, executive producer for Warner Brothers."

The sweet dream I'll be chasing. We all had a good laugh, some were kidding but most of us were serious. It seemed funny then, but who knows? Maybe we'll really become the persons we envisioned that day. 

The thing about my degree is it is so broad. Unlike other courses that are specialized. When you take up Nursing, you're sure to be a nurse, when you take up IT, you're sure to know about computers and most probably end up as a programmer. With us? We learned the art of communicating. Some will never understand the beauty of communication and most of us aren't even sure how we learned it, we just did. All those papers, those productions and everything we did when we were in college led us to a treasure of knowledge about communication. So where do we go? We're trained as producers and writers, but we know, we have more capabilities than those. And this is where I get confused. What capabilities do I have and how should I maximize them? Questions, there are just too many of them running in my head right now.

I finally understand why life choices at this stage is very important. Whatever I decide to become today will lead me to a path. Honestly, I really can't see where I'll be this exact moment next year. Will I still be here in Ormoc? Will I'll be in Cebu? Will I'll be travelling? or maybe I'm married alread?? Just kidding. 

The point is, I think that being confused after graduation is normal. You get to live in a world where you have one goal, to finish your studies. When you achieved that goal, what's next? The next step is harder because this time, you get to live in a much diverse uncontrolled world. The dreams that you have before may not look so attractive anymore and you're faced in a dilemma. 

The only thing I've been doing is killing, I've been murdering time and thinking hard. When I'm done with this project, I still don't know what to do with my life. One thing is for sure though, I'll definitely visit my friends when I'm done. As for my life? Maybe new opportunities will come and let's see where it'll lead me. 

Summers of the Future

Dear Summer,

I feel the heavy wind in my face. You have come and past again. Like I said before, this summer is my last. The rain is starting  to fall and I could feel the cold wind as it envelopes my whole body. There's no sunshine to lift my face to, just the rain falling down. 

You have given me much opportunities this year. I was able to spent the best days of you with my family and closest friends. I walked the stage, smiling despite my hurting foot, as my parents gave me my medal. I walked the streets of Macau and Hong Kong despite my aching legs. I rode a roller coaster in Disneyland, who would've thought I'd do it four times? I spent a nice hot day in a beautiful secluded island, where the sands were white and the ocean was so blue. I got so drunk for the first time with my best friends by my side. And when I'm not doing any adventures with you, I stay at home, fronting my computer, writing from the bottom of my heart or watching something beautiful. 

I wonder what you have for me next year. I wonder where I'll be then. Will I still be the same person? Will I still try to write the pieces of my mind? Will I still be looking forward for you? 

Things will definitely change for me and you. I will never be able to enjoy you the way I've used to for the past years. There will be no more long summer vacation for me, only short periods. Your warm sunshine will continue to rise but I will not be able to take full advantage of it. I will not have sun burns like I used to have. Who knows, I might not even be there for my family. 

My, my, how times have changed. I will miss you again. Another ten months before I get to taste your sweet summer scent or your wonderful sunrises and sunsets. By that time, I hope that I have changed, but still remain to be the same. 

Goodbye Summer, see you next year. I look forward for what you have for me. 

Read my Summers of the Past.

The Adele Addiction

I was browsing through youtube and found my way to a vlogger's page. ItsKingsleyBitch is a vlogger that rants about everything. The way he talks is hilarious and he makes simple things funny. I've been his subscriber for a few months now. One of my favorite things about him is his discussion on "overexposed" things. Last December, as a year ender for his vlog he discussed ten overexposed things of 2010. His number one was Justing Bieber and if you want to have a good laugh, you should definitely watch it here. 

Its been quite awhile now that I've visited his page. I browse through his videos and found out he discussed about Adele's Rolling in the Deep as "overexposed". At the beginning of the video, he acknowledge Adele's talent and well, you should just watch the video yourself.

Its true, Adele has been in the industry since 2008 and is only gaining international prominence now that she decided to go in Hollywood. I know her song Chasing Pavements hit the charts and did well on radio plays, but it was a long due fame. Chasing Pavement started making wave early last year. And though I've always love good music, it is only last year that I've truly appreciated Chasing Pavement. 

At that time, I didn't know much about Adele and I honestly thought she was an African-American. Call it stereotyping, but Soul music has always been with the black community (Aretha Franklin, anyone?). It was only 'till I've watched Adele live that I realized what a beautiful singer she is. 

I am truly lucky that the first time I fell in love with Adele, it was during a heartfelt performance. She sang Someone Like You in the Brit Awards with so much emotions, it almost made me cry. It didn't help that the man introducing her had so many great words for her. Just from that one song, I knew that 21, her album, was beautiful. I didn't waste anytime and stole some music (lol). 

Ever since then, there's not a week that I don't listen to her song. During the first week of listening to 21, I played it everyday, nonstop, no kidding. I've almost memorized all her songs. I also have her 19 album, the one where Chasing Pavement is from.

Unlike other artists, Adele brings broken and pain to a whole new level. Its not just the lyrics that makes it so sad, its the way she put all her emotions when she's singing. She sings so beautifully, you'll be captivated and be lost for awhile. And she's one of the few singers who sings better when live, because you get to see all her emotions. Like that from the Brit Awards, you can see her tearing up after singing the song. 

My favorite songs from her 21 album are Turning Tables, Someone Like You and Don't You Remember. But all of her songs are truly amazing. Her debut album, 19, was great too. My ultimate favorite song from Adele is from that album, First Love. Other favorites include Melt My Heart to Stone and Make You Feel My Love

First Love is a favorite because of the irony of the song. The title itself makes you think its about falling in love. The tune and the melody of the song is so happy, you wouldn't think its a very sad song if you weren't listening closely. First Love is about falling out of love. The arrangement, the lyrics, the voice and even the happy tune is perfect for the song. 

There's nothing more to say, because Adele's music speak for itself. If you haven't listened to her yet, then you're missing real and good music, something that is rare in this era.

Here's the lyrics to First Love.

So little to say but so much time

Despite my empty mouth the words are in my mind

Please wear the face the one where you smile

Because you lighten up my heart when i start to cry

Forgive me first love but i'm tired

I need to get away to feel again

Try to understand why

Don't get so close to change my mind

Please wipe that look out of your eyes

It's bribing me to doubt myself

Simply it's tiring

This love has dried up and stay behind

And if i stay i?ll be alive

Then choke on words i'd always hide

Excuse me first love but we're through

I need to taste the kiss from someone new

Forgive me first love but i'm too tired

I'm bored to say the least and i lack desire

Forgive me first love forgive me first love

Forgive me first love forgive me first love forgive me

Forgive me first love forgive me first love

We Have Love

It’s kind of depressing how things change. Earlier, I was depressed because of the near ending of a television series I’ve already watched twice. I went to church feeling my heart getting heavier. I couldn’t understand why, thinking that it was because of the series ending, I brushed it off. I still prayed for calmness and peacefulness for my heart.

The heavy heart wasn’t cause by the series, it was caused by a long due realization that finally sunk in. I’ve always known that after graduating, things will be different. I will be leaving some friends behind, while I’ll be making new ones on the way. I thought I was prepared leaving the people I’ve come to known for more than two years now. I was wrong, because hearing their voices made me realize how difficult it is to let go of people you’ve given your emotions to.

Realizing that I might see them less and less and even not seeing them in a long time, is depressing. Who would’ve thought that such mismatch people can be so alike? The world really works in a humorous and interesting way.

No more late nights at the long table. No more surprise birthday parties. No more late night talk with anyone from the group. No more ice cream night. No more movie night. No more hanging out, talking about nothing and everything.

Just some few things I will miss doing with the group. I’ve realized just last March how emotionally attached I was with the kids, or rather, the group. From the Valentines surprise, to the cry fest at the long table made me grasp the bond that we have.

Things will change, that’s something out of my control. Time will change for us, we’ll grow older, we’ll grow wiser and we might not see each other in a long time. We’ll change, but we’ll remain the same. We’ll always have that two years together. We’ll always the photos and the videos of what was once. We’ll always have our hearts, bonded by a thing called love.